Chapter 3- Pretend
(You told me I was beautiful, You told me I was your magnet, nothing could pull you away. It would be us against the world.)
“I cannot be with you anymore. I am leaving. “
(Why? Huh? Were we ever together? What is happening? This is absurd! )
The world was spinning. I lost focus of everything. One blink, then you were gone.
Tear drops fell. One at a time.
(I hardly cried, especially not over people! Everything is so absurd.. yet the only thing that made sense was that you had left. I was alone. You were gone. )
Then the stream turned into a gush of salty liquid. I broke down. The grey clouds were re-gathering. The storm got darker and darker. It was all black now.
I opened my eyes.
This room is not yellow canary. It is an ugly pink. Today is not my birthday, it’s still 6 months away. While, Manaa is far away, in another city.
That was all just a dream. No more crying, no more pain, no more absurdities.
The only thing that’s same is: I was alone.
While in this reality, you didn’t leave me.. you never would.
I had pushed you away. So far away, almost like you don’t EXIST. (I realise, we ended before we were even together, because I was scared.)
You do NOT exist!
Even if I repeated this a 1000 times, you do exist.
You exist in my memories.
You exist in my thoughts.
exist in haunt my dreams.
I had pushed you away, I regret it now.
I could stop the nightmare. I could reach out to you. I could get a closure.
But I am still scared of “us”. So,
I will not approach you. (Pretend you don’t exist.)
I’ll erase your traces. ( Pretend you don’t exist. )
I’ll just call this a bad dream and move on.
Pretend you don’t exist!
Hey readers!! This is the end of my first story “Exist” . I know the story is crummy and rocky. I myself noticed a lot of scope for improvement. Comment and help me out for a better story next time!! Take care❣