Welcome to when I couldn’t keep my shit together. This could be a glorified tv drama if it got the chance. *shrugs*
It is an embarrassing, messy and
ugly very ugly side of me that has presented itself of numerous occasions. I have gotten better at not going into my Rudra Avatar. But there are lots… uhm.. lets say some incidents when I was the red guy from inside out.
For example, punching a girl in her guts, (weirdly though she’s my bestie now). Or giving an accidental head injury to a friend who was goading me. Emphasis on accidental because I merely shoved her, the bench came in her way.
Another instance being when I shouted at a teacher. Thank heavens (and the school bell) that I didn’t get into any trouble. Today, I am not even sure which one of us was correct? Me or her?
Bursting into tears because I was forced to play basketball with a 100 degree fever. Gosh and they wonder why I quit the team.
A stupid action that I now regret is, throwing away at least ten poems that my ex-bff had written to me because I was angry. Ugh, I could have modified them and posted them here.😒 Turns out hate and revenge are great inspirations for poetry.
One of my favorite times when I lost my cool was in 7th standard. The complaint was not even against me, I just lawyered up for my classmates and yelled my head off at this certain jerk. He never spoke to me again. Isn’t that nice (:
I won’t mention my fights with my sister because they are petty and uninteresting. And also because I usually lose and have to compromise😐.
The latest episode of “losing my shit” is this post. I might come to regret publishing this. I don’t understand why I wrote this rant about my past rants, but as you’ve realized by now, I do crazy stuff when my chill goes on vacations. Or maybe I wrote this because I have nothing interesting in my life.😂
At times when I couldn’t act upon my feelings, I took it out on my hair. Sad? Cut my hair. Angry? Cut my hair. Bored? Cut my hair. Somebody should really piss me off soon because my hair are growing, and I need a reason to chop’em off again.
well, goodbye. till the next time!